So I woke up this morning at 6:45 to prepare for a meeting at 9:30 (thankfully I live just a few blocks from the office, so I can leave the house at 9:25 and still be on time) and I was STARVING. I had a sweet potato with plenty of pasture-fed butter and a couple of cubes of organic pasture-fed white cheddar cheese for dinner last night. It took longer than I counted on to cook the potato so I didn't eat until about 9:00, a little later than I like to. But I knew I needed to "re-feed" again, and chose a healthier alternative this time than tortilla chips. Nevertheless King Carb was tapping on my brain this morning saying "c'mon, you know you want some fruit and yogurt with a little of that granola I know you still have in the back of the cabinet." Fortunaterly I had pre-empted the bugger by setting up my auto-brew last night on the coffee maker. By the time I dragged myself out of bed and got to the kitchen it was ready to go. I poured my first cup and put in my butter and MCT oil thinking "How am I ever going to get through this meeting without some food?" It wasn't a hugely important meeting, but it was me, one-on-one, with my dissertation director/assistantship supervisor to report on my readings and research progress, and I needed to be sharp. A couple of weeks ago that would have led to a carb binge: straight to the coffee shop on the courthouse square for a bagel and cream cheese and a large iced coffee with caramel syrup and skim milk.
But this time I was prepared. Even with that voice in the back of my head whispering "feed me...feed me..." I sat down with my coffee, pulled up an inspiring Yale lecture on Youtube, and began reviewing the readings I needed to report on. I got pulled into my work and before I knew it, it was almost time to go. I hadn't even thought about being hungry since my first sip of coffee. When I arrived at the office, my dissertation director was scrambling to get ready for our meeting, sending off last minute emails, digging through folders for his notes. We finally went into his office and had a great meeting and I ACTUALLY FELT LIKE I KNEW WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT. I haven't taken my adderall since I started and I have found that I actually absorb information better now than I ever did using ADD meds. Not only that, but when I'm put on the spot with a tough question, I have no problem calmly sorting through my thoughts to put together a coherent answer, and I don't stress out when I genuinely don't know. It was probably the best dissertation meeting I've ever had.
Unfortunately by the time I got done I was hungry again. I ran to my house to get another cup of coffee and also ate a quick piece of cheese because I don't have anything at home to bring to the office to eat right now and I won't have time to go out for lunch this afternoon. But between the cheese and the second cup of coffee, I should be able to get through the rest of the afternoon (I get done at 3PM, so not TOO bad) without any major meltdown or crash. Sometimes it's the little things.
Weight today: 213.0. Nothing lost, but nothing gained! I'll take it. Also, I took my measurements and I think I've lost around an inch each on my hips, waist, and bust, and maybe two on my braline. The braline loss is really exciting to me because it's coming off of my back. Backfat is the most incidious fat - always hiding out behind your back! It sneaks up, stays hidden until you catch your reflection at justtheright angle, and then BOOM! You are a person with back fat.
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