Day 8 - Morning meetings and BPIF

So I woke up this morning at 6:45 to prepare for a meeting at 9:30 (thankfully I live just a few blocks from the office, so I can leave the house at 9:25 and still be on time) and I was STARVING.  I had a sweet potato with plenty of pasture-fed butter and a couple of cubes of organic pasture-fed white cheddar cheese for dinner last night.  It took longer than I counted on to cook the potato so I didn't eat until about 9:00, a little later than I like to.  But I knew I needed to "re-feed" again, and chose a healthier alternative this time than tortilla chips.  Nevertheless King Carb was tapping on my brain this morning saying "c'mon, you know you want some fruit and yogurt with a little of that granola I know you still have in the back of the cabinet."  Fortunaterly I had pre-empted the bugger by setting up my auto-brew last night on the coffee maker.  By the time I dragged myself out of bed and got to the kitchen it was ready to go.  I poured my first cup and put in my butter and MCT oil thinking "How am I ever going to get through this meeting without some food?"  It wasn't a hugely important meeting, but it was me, one-on-one, with my dissertation director/assistantship supervisor to report on my readings and research progress, and I needed to be sharp.  A couple of weeks ago that would have led to a carb binge: straight to the coffee shop on the courthouse square for a bagel and cream cheese and a large iced coffee with caramel syrup and skim milk. 
But this time I was prepared.  Even with that voice in the back of my head whispering "feed me...feed me..." I sat down with my coffee, pulled up an inspiring Yale lecture on Youtube, and began reviewing the readings I needed to report on.  I got pulled into my work and before I knew it, it was almost time to go.  I hadn't even thought about being hungry since my first sip of coffee.  When I arrived at the office, my dissertation director was scrambling to get ready for our meeting, sending off last minute emails, digging through folders for his notes.  We finally went into his office and had a great meeting and I ACTUALLY FELT LIKE I KNEW WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT.  I haven't taken my adderall since I started and I have found that I actually absorb information better now than I ever did using ADD meds.  Not only that, but when I'm put on the spot with a tough question, I have no problem calmly sorting through my thoughts to put together a coherent answer, and I don't stress out when I genuinely don't know.  It was probably the best dissertation meeting I've ever had. 
Unfortunately by the time I got done I was hungry again.  I ran to my house to get another cup of coffee and also ate a quick piece of cheese because I don't have anything at home to bring to the office to eat right now and I won't have time to go out for lunch this afternoon.  But between the cheese and the second cup of coffee, I should be able to get through the rest of the afternoon (I get done at 3PM, so not TOO bad) without any major meltdown or crash.  Sometimes it's the little things.  

Weight today:  213.0.  Nothing lost, but nothing gained!  I'll take it.  Also, I took my measurements and I think I've lost around an inch each on my hips, waist, and bust, and maybe two on my braline.  The braline loss is really exciting to me because it's coming off of my back.  Backfat is the most incidious fat - always hiding out behind your back!  It sneaks up, stays hidden until you catch your reflection at justtheright angle, and then BOOM!  You are a person with back fat. 

Day 5 on BPIF: Laughing in the face of discouragement

So yesterday I was up a few pounds, today I was about halfway back down.  I know the pitfalls of checking your weight every day, but for the sake of the experiment I want to see exactly how different foods affect me at different points in the process.  The hard part, though, has been getting back on the low-carb.  I haven't slipped, but I have definitely struggled more than I did at the first.  I had a very difficult time yesterday getting through the morning on my BP coffee alone.  I ran home at noon for an extra cup but was still ready to eat my arm off by 2:00 and ended up breaking my fast a little earlier than I wanted to, but I had a sensible meal of baked salmon and broccoli, followed by yogurt around 6:00, and then three eggs for my last meal at about 8:30.  Managed to get to sleep (eventually) without eating anything extra, just had my detox tea before bed.  This morning before work I ran to the store and picked up a travel mug so I could take a big cup of BP coffee to work with me to sip on throughout the morning instead of trying to guzzle it all down before leaving the house or having to leave work to re-up.  Nevertheless as soon as it was gone I was ready to EAT.  I came home around 2:30 and had some canned tuna and haven't been hungry since (it is now almost 6:00 - not bad for me).  I will definitely not be doing a carb re-feed anytime before Thursday, and when I do it will definitely be sweet potatoes, not corn chips!  Here's hoping I can get my weight back down to pre-refeed before then!

Day 3

Wow okay so apparently part of me thinks I am still 21 and had too many margaritas last night.  Yesterday was my "re-feed" day, so I let myself off the hook just a wee bit, still avoiding wheat because it seems to be my big trigger, but not corn (or margaritas - but with lime juice only, no sour mix or simple syrup) just as an experiment.  My first meal was just yogurt and whey, in preparation for the night of carbing up that I knew I had ahead of me.  I met a friend for dinner at a Mexican restaurant and had chips with cheese dip, a chile relleno, and a side of beans.  And margaritas.  It was glorious.  After two days stalled out, I didn't really expect my weight to go down.  I had a couple of glasses of water before bed and a couple this morning when I woke up to start getting my body back to "normal."  I slept through coffee time and haven't eaten yet.  I just weighed and was shocked to see that I had, in fact, lost another 1.2 lb.  If this keeps up I should see the underside of 210 in the next couple of days.  That's not too huge for me.  I had only gotten above 210 in the last couple of months, really.  But it will be nice and I'll feel a bit more "normal" I think.  Now I just have to get motivated to actually cook today...(vertical is scary).  It will be probably at least Wednesday before I "refeed" again.

Overall starting weight:  219.8
Bulletproof starting weight: 213.8
Day three weight:  211.4

Update:  I think I accidentally got "glutened" last night.  My knees hurt.  Not as badly as before, but there is definitely some inflammation.